“Consider my Groaning…”

Psalm 5:1 contains these three simple words: “Consider my groaning.”  I propose that they are a portal through which to view something of our humanity.

Our groanings represent very deep truth within us.  This truth, this weighty thing inside, is not based empirically in our biology, but it is physically manifested–a groan from our deepest self, and shared among all peoples.  It’s an aspect of our authentic self that cries out in frustration, pain, or deep yearning, yet it does so without hardly a single thought formed around it.

A groaning isn’t about a particular subject–it’s a groan for all subjects. It is something completely human–it is a dialectic of both the weak and the eternal.

It mocks our highest achievements, because it sees them in their true state; its blinding light displays their ultimate futility and their failed ability to lift us, dare I say, save us.

Our very essence is a groan. It is present at the first cry of our birth, and our dying breath.

But here the Psalmist entrusts it to God. He believes God will consider it–him.

Nothing is added to the groan. It is complete. Yet completely non-specific.

The groan is authenticity. It possess an integrity toward a better life, but solidarity with sinful humanity.  It’s the created self, and there is a hope, even trust that God cares about it.

The deep of the one is speaking to the deep of the other, and it seems a perfect fit that they meet. For in this union, peace and well-being spring fourth.  It’s the only place real peace ever has, and ever will.